I hate my days now more often!!

well,

Let me tell you the story about what had happened....

Its was like this....

Ok,,......About my father....??

Well...,

He is a hot-tempered person....

He can be said so always scold us...!!

I used to Hate and Like him....

Hate him when he scold and like him when he is normal.....

I still remember when i was small....

He once scolded my mum until she went to her room and cried herslf....

I still remember that coz i was there with her....

Then just imagine I was like in kindergarden and my dad used to beat me using the belt....

MISERABLE!!

and then he wouldnt stop scolding,yelling,shouting....complaining...!!!

Please....

He will go mad for something small....

I can figure out that he is releasing his anger towards us!!

Then since i went to boarding school....

Things got better....

I didnt see him often....

so i am happy staying in my school.....and i am praying for the school to start quickly....

But now....I hate him....

In the house...

noone ever say no or shout at him back if he does....

But i DID!!

i cant stand anymore....

the feeling was like i want to suicide to have a father like him!!!!

i am sorry....

but i am going trough hard times....

please forgive me....