Now I am Feeling Much Much Much More Better

Hmph...,

Today , i woke up feeling so tired...

Because last night i had leg cramp...

So pain till i can't fall asleep...

But luckily i messaged my biebie....

At first i thought he slept...

Then i was quite shocked when my phone vibrated and saw it was 

my biebie replying my message~!!! ^*^

=.<...

hehehe....

That time was so happy...

Thats why i message him i can't really feeling the pain...

Slight pain only.....

Then i suddenly started to feel tired and felt asleep...

Just imagine this morning i woke up and saw two more meassages...

hehehe.....

I dont' want say what the message wrote ; )

hahakz....

Well...i hope that today will be a good day....

Tomorrow will be a good day and so on...

THE BEST IS EVERYDAY IS A GOOD DAY....!!!

OH gOD~!!!

Oh my God~!!

Whatever is happening to me now is making me feeling so 

confused and sick....!!!

Why is my life like that??

Why can't i just get to wish that my life would be

A simple life, 

Filled with happiness...

Laughter, Loves, and also Peace??

I am starting to get tired staying in my house....

Last time ya....

I would feel like i want to quickly grow up and get away....

Nowadays....

That they are already better a bit...

I feel ok .....

Only A LITTLE BIT.....

Now i am missing all my friends in SERATAS....

Hope to see them soon....

Well....

I won't have to wait long..

Because i am going back to my school this Sunday...

Hmph....

I am still having the feeling of sadness...

In my heart, my mind,..and my soul....

You really really did broke my heart and now its wounded.....

What you think you wanna do bout it??

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Today i went to my primary school,

Sekolah Kebangsaan Kampung Muhibbah,

I am so happy to see all my ex-teachers....

They already look kindda old...

Well..,

Not all of them..

Some are...And i can really feel that i am growing up and also going to be an adult soon....

Its just that i have to wait....

Well.... Now only i see how hard teachers are used to be...

Teaching is a real hard work...

Well...,But i am happy that i studied seriously all these year till i get to a boarding school....Hahah....Thats just lucky me i think....

Then i went to my supposed-to-be-school....

Sekolah Menengah Kampung Muhibbah....

There i met a lot of my old friends....

So happy to see them...

The boys joked with me and the girls chatted with me...

Seeing them all studying in the same class and same school...

Kindda make me feel jealous and regretted why i even entered the boarding school....

I love my friends here....

And now i really missed studying with them together....

Sometimes...I would even sit down quietly think that

Why i even accept that boarding school??

Why i want to live my house, my parents, my friends for that??

Why would i even want to transfer and get involved in all types of problems...??

FRIENDSHIP, STUDIES, LOVES, TEACHERS, AND SENIORS??

what is all this about??....

I think and think ....

Only that to find out that i am creating myself problems.....

I am on my own lonely road back to my HOPE destination....

What should i say now...??

First...

I neglected my blog and go on to my life...

With my couple....

Hahaha...

Sounds nice right??

But now no more...

I am no more a considering girl....

I have had enough of pain....

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS LOVE STUFFS,.....

i am starting to grow tired of it...

My mistake to change COUPLE IS DURABLE...SINGLE IS MOVEABLE...

Now no more...

I dont really hold to that proverb anymore...

And i dont really trust my heart anymore....

Everytime i get myself hurted....

The first time is like that.....

Even the second time is more worst....

I dont want to say anything bout that anymore...

I am really tired of crying since from evening itself....

And i still cant really stop crying now....

I feel like dying...

But my friends are preventing...

I feel like hurting myself....

But my instincts are weakening....

LASTLY.....FUCK-OFF....~!!