huhu...i am scared....>

huhu...
i am so damn scared...
because my PMR result ig coming out next thursday...!!!
please pray for me...!!!! please please...!!!
omg...!!!
i am so scared laa...><...huhuh...
got no boyfriend to ask im to help me...
haizzz.....
nevermind la...
past is past.....
i am ok now....huhuh....

Motor Accident...~

Today....

I was so happy...

Because i am going for my international marathon....

I practised so damn hard for that....

Runned every single day....

Temp to win the marathon...

To break my own record of the longest run in my life that i have ran....

At first i woke up in the early morning,....

To only realise after that i had marathon...

My heart was jumping happily that this day came...

I even bought a new pair of sports trouser for that....RM19.90...cheetah ladies...

I went there with my friends and baby...

I walked there....

During my journey to that place...

Somthing came across my mind....

Can i win??

I was kindda confident that i have the feeling of winning....

At least past the time....

When the marathon started,...

I ran with my friend kar ling...

We were going to the front slowly and slowly...

Haha....

I felt happy that time....

Because a lot of people stopped cause too tired....

I kept on running and running and running...

Then...

Kar ling started to disappear to the front leaving me behind...

That time...

I was actually feeling very weird....

.I felt somthing is not wrong but i dont know what was that,....

I just leave it and kept on running....

2km....

8km......

16km.....

9km.......

And now...just a few metres more to reach the final stop....

Suddenly....

Somthing pushed me from behind....

That time i was really blank and dont really know what had happened,...

I tried to turn behind and see but i fell down....

I fell down and i felt that i was being pushed  some more....

I cant actually see anything...

All i was heard was a machine sound...

Its scary....

What i was thinking of that time is DYING.....

seriously.....

Then i was being rolled aside....

My heart was pounding hard....

Then someone pulled me to the arm...

I saw an indian guy....

He was also the marathon's participant....

I heard him shouting for help and also "call the ambulans"....

That time...i realised...

I was being knocked down by a motorcycle....

The motorist ran off after knocking me down....

I saw people chasing him.....

Then i cant think of anything more....

I struggled....i pushed....i hold my chest and it was pain....

I was going to vomit but at last i didnt....

People were gathering around me and they were trying to hold me down....

I was gasping for air...

I was so shocked and scared that something will happen to me...

That time i called out "mummy....~"....

Then i thought of my PMR....

I shouted out loud...

VERY VERY VERY LOUD....

Then i thought of my friends... i thought of my family...my PMR....and BABY...

I called baby's name....

At first...then... was too tired of shouting....

then....a chinese guy came to me and asks for my parents phone number...

I was too afraid to tell my parents about it that time...

I didnt tell them that i participate in the run...

I said no to him and he said its a must because i am going to the hospital...

Then i told him the number...

He called my dad....
Then i was lookind at everyone and everywhere....
I saw baby....He look so shocked....
He was with me all the time....
I wanted to hug him that time...
But i was lifeless....
Then....
I heard the ambulance's siren....
The people took me up on the bed and i saw Jane....
She followed me to the hospital and baby also....
Along the way to the hospital....
Jane was with me and baby too....
Baby hold my hand....
And i was also holding his hand....
I hold his hand tightly....Hes trying to comfort me....
Then i arrived at the hospital....
Then i was admitted and now everythings ok....
The nurses said that i had a trauma.....
And that time....
I was only thinking bout my run,, my pmr,,, and my baby.....

DIZZY...!!!@@ i am not feeling well...!! i am sad.....

Huhu....

I am thinking back of my past few days...

I have been enjoying...^^

Yaya...

But on the same time...

I fear about my PMR...

I told my mum that i am afraid of it...

And all she just say was...

TRY YOUR VERY BEST...

I know

I always try my best in all my exams

But somtimes

My best is not the best

Thats what i am afraid now

That my best that i am applying for my PMR 

is really2 not my very best

I already have no more time now...

Days are going by faster and faster...

And fear gets to me

faster and faster too....

I AM SO DAMN SCARED LA...HELPP.....MEEE......

Huhu...

I am actually very scared to face my upcoming exams la./..

OmG.....really cant face it...

I am scared of my Bahasa Melayu and my Sejarah will be the spoiler la....

Cant actually take the fear.....

my bBIE...

I HATE YOU....

Never ever ever trust a person that might have been your friend for years..
Because somtimes when it goes to their importance...
They may betray you or sacrifice you for their own idiots...
I have my own story where my friend did that..
I am so sick and tired of it,,..
Its hurting me...sure it is...
And most of all..
I really hated it,,...
I dont actually know what to do..
To scold that people makes me hate that people more...
I need a help here...
Anyone whos kind enough that come across my blog please LEAVE a comment about this...

I AM BACK HOME AGAIN~~!!!

I am back home again today....

HaHA....was so freaking damn happy bout it..=)

At the school time i was just waiting like hell only for the last school bell ring to ring...

Seriously that time moves like a snail when we want it to be fast...

But fast when we want it to slow down....

urggghh...!!

But al least now i  can stay at my house and do all my revision peacefully....well...

I really hope that whatever i am doing now is going to help me in the future....

Just to say that 

I AM HAPPY TO BE BACK AT HOME...!!!

YAY!!! I FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!

Haha....

At last i finished me Pre-PMR examinations...!!

I am so happy bout it...

My result is that i get 5As and 2Bs....huhu

I have to work harder for pmr !!!

Pray for me everyone...!!

I am so damn scared la...!!!

I am feeling so damn scared la now....

My PMR-trail is next month on 3rd of august!!!1

And now...i AM DOING NOTHING...!!!

I want to study....but i got dancing practice...

It makes me hard to study la...

Sometimes i am angry of the dance practice...

But sometimes i dont....

I AM IN DILEMMA....!!!

FUCK...

Now I am Feeling Much Much Much More Better

Hmph...,

Today , i woke up feeling so tired...

Because last night i had leg cramp...

So pain till i can't fall asleep...

But luckily i messaged my biebie....

At first i thought he slept...

Then i was quite shocked when my phone vibrated and saw it was 

my biebie replying my message~!!! ^*^

=.<...

hehehe....

That time was so happy...

Thats why i message him i can't really feeling the pain...

Slight pain only.....

Then i suddenly started to feel tired and felt asleep...

Just imagine this morning i woke up and saw two more meassages...

hehehe.....

I dont' want say what the message wrote ; )

hahakz....

Well...i hope that today will be a good day....

Tomorrow will be a good day and so on...

THE BEST IS EVERYDAY IS A GOOD DAY....!!!

OH gOD~!!!

Oh my God~!!

Whatever is happening to me now is making me feeling so 

confused and sick....!!!

Why is my life like that??

Why can't i just get to wish that my life would be

A simple life, 

Filled with happiness...

Laughter, Loves, and also Peace??

I am starting to get tired staying in my house....

Last time ya....

I would feel like i want to quickly grow up and get away....

Nowadays....

That they are already better a bit...

I feel ok .....

Only A LITTLE BIT.....

Now i am missing all my friends in SERATAS....

Hope to see them soon....

Well....

I won't have to wait long..

Because i am going back to my school this Sunday...

Hmph....

I am still having the feeling of sadness...

In my heart, my mind,..and my soul....

You really really did broke my heart and now its wounded.....

What you think you wanna do bout it??

_____________________________________________________________

Today i went to my primary school,

Sekolah Kebangsaan Kampung Muhibbah,

I am so happy to see all my ex-teachers....

They already look kindda old...

Well..,

Not all of them..

Some are...And i can really feel that i am growing up and also going to be an adult soon....

Its just that i have to wait....

Well.... Now only i see how hard teachers are used to be...

Teaching is a real hard work...

Well...,But i am happy that i studied seriously all these year till i get to a boarding school....Hahah....Thats just lucky me i think....

Then i went to my supposed-to-be-school....

Sekolah Menengah Kampung Muhibbah....

There i met a lot of my old friends....

So happy to see them...

The boys joked with me and the girls chatted with me...

Seeing them all studying in the same class and same school...

Kindda make me feel jealous and regretted why i even entered the boarding school....

I love my friends here....

And now i really missed studying with them together....

Sometimes...I would even sit down quietly think that

Why i even accept that boarding school??

Why i want to live my house, my parents, my friends for that??

Why would i even want to transfer and get involved in all types of problems...??

FRIENDSHIP, STUDIES, LOVES, TEACHERS, AND SENIORS??

what is all this about??....

I think and think ....

Only that to find out that i am creating myself problems.....

I am on my own lonely road back to my HOPE destination....

What should i say now...??

First...

I neglected my blog and go on to my life...

With my couple....

Hahaha...

Sounds nice right??

But now no more...

I am no more a considering girl....

I have had enough of pain....

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS LOVE STUFFS,.....

i am starting to grow tired of it...

My mistake to change COUPLE IS DURABLE...SINGLE IS MOVEABLE...

Now no more...

I dont really hold to that proverb anymore...

And i dont really trust my heart anymore....

Everytime i get myself hurted....

The first time is like that.....

Even the second time is more worst....

I dont want to say anything bout that anymore...

I am really tired of crying since from evening itself....

And i still cant really stop crying now....

I feel like dying...

But my friends are preventing...

I feel like hurting myself....

But my instincts are weakening....

LASTLY.....FUCK-OFF....~!!

I AM OK ALREADY WITH MY BEST BUDDY SHEENA NALANI!!!

I am happy now~!!!

Because i am already ok with my very best pal....

Sheena nalani....

The past few days we were fighting....

Then,....

We didnt talked to each other....

I am so sad bout that thing....

Untill i missed talking to her badly everyday in the school....

I am also happy that birThday night she wishes me happy birthday....

I LOVE YOU SHEENA...

MY BEST FRENZ...

MY BIRTHDAY~!!

Yap!!!

Today is my lucky day....

I LOVE TODAY DAMN MUCH....!

As aspected i got a new handphone from my beloved sister.....SONY ERICSON .....

So bye2 to the "cikai" phone....

Hahakz,,,....

I love that new phone so much...

And the most important prat is that it is pink in colour.....

But i cried a lot today too....

Because of some arguments....

I am sad and happy on the same time....

But why do i feel like my birthday day is passing so quickily??

Why must it go so fast??

I am sad that tomorrow is not my birthday anymore....

Is someone else's birthday....

So....i WISH that someone else Happy Birthday~!!!!!

I AM WAITING FOR MY BIRTHDAY...!! 2 MORE HOURS!!!

omg!!!

I really cant believe that i am going to be 15 after this two hours!!!

I am so happy that i am already older and more older....==

Hahakz....

Just now my daddy drive me,mummy and brother to Jusco there!!!

We all do what??

Shop shop shop~!!!

Hahakz,....

I bought a new pink and blue sport shoe....

i love pink....BiBi love light blue ....hehe....

Perfect match~!!

BORING DAY!!!

Today is such a boring day....

Bi is very very busy with band nowadays...

but fortunately...i still can message him and also manage to call him....!!

i am happy just with that....

haha....

I feel more comfortable with Bi....

He makes me feel more happier than ever,....

Thats why i love him so much....

Because he is good and he loves me as much as i love him....

Alex.....I love you .....

I am happy with you and you make me happier...!!!

I AM SO HAPPY NOW AND EVERYDAY I HOPE!!!

Hahakz....

nothing special happened to me....

Just that just now i called bibi and talked to him....

hahakz.....

I kindda miss him.....

Hearing his voice makes me feels happy and excited to talk to him.....

But i still have the shy shy feelings ....

hehe.....

Bibi....I love you...!!!!

I AM BACK FROM SCHOOL..!!!

I am feeling so happy at the last day at my school...

No teacher enters our class,

AnD we are free to do whatever we like....

Thats the most nicest part....

Is that that one day we no need  to do anything....

I am also so happy because finally my friend...

Fiona broke up with Keith with the last main decision...

Just imagine she didnt couple with him again after this last break up...!!

I am so happy that at last Fiona make up her mind....

And thats only the one thing that Fiona is sad about Keith is tha...

He can forget Fina in one day and liked other person....

While Fiona cried almost everynight for him...???!!!!!

FIONA

!!!!

Just let him go....

But luckily.....

Fiona found someone else who heals back her heart that are broken to pieces quickily....

I am so happy for her....

that new boy' s name is Alex....

He is kind and cute and handsome...!!!

Haha ....

On the day Fiona was sad and down hearted....

He messaged her to encourage her.....

That was so nice of him...and at last both of them COUPLED!!!!!

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU FIONA....!!!

ITS TIME TO FORGET THE PAST!!!

LET BYGONE BE BYGONE.............

Chinese New Year 2011 ...!!

Hehe...

Today...i am so tired and happy...!!!

Today as planned...

all my friends came...

I was so happy coz all my old friends came including the boys...~!!

All the tibbits that my mummy and daddy bought were finished by them...

So,

just imagine how many people came....

We all shared stories...

Chit-Chatted....

Laugh....

I was really really happy to see them all....

Especially all my friends...i thought they wont come...

but they did...!!!

TOMORROW IS CHINESE NEW YEAR...!!!

Yay~!!!

Tomorrow is Chinese New Year...

I am so happy to want to celebrate it~!!!

Hehe....

Tomorrow all my friends from my old schools are coming over to my house~!!!...

Boys and Girls...!!!

I am really feelings so damn happy!!!

I cant wait for tomorrow......

Tomorrow my friend...Madelyn and Prijeetha ill come too,....

i am sure that we all will have great times together...!!!

My new clothes also got four already!!!

I am gonna post my pictures on Facebook!!

hehe..~

Go and See la....><

i am back at home now~!!!!!

I am feeling so damn happy now~~!!!!

I am finally at home now and i am decorating my house to celebrate 

CHINESE NEW YEAR~!!!!

I am so so so so so so so damn happy....

This is what i wanted...!!!

I cant even wait to celebrate that day!....

All my friends are coming on that day...

and i have all my new clothes now~!!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!!! 2011~~~~~

so long didnt edit my blog, i miss you blog!!

I miss my blog so much~!!

Well its obvious cause now i am already form 3..

I dont have lots of time to manage this blog already..

I am so sad..huhu...

But never mind la...

i promise to write whenever i have time..

I seriously miss this blog so much!!

OMG!!

If only my school allowed me to bring just a small notebook to school,

Definitely i will always edit you!!