huhu...i am scared....>

huhu...
i am so damn scared...
because my PMR result ig coming out next thursday...!!!
please pray for me...!!!! please please...!!!
omg...!!!
i am so scared laa...><...huhuh...
got no boyfriend to ask im to help me...
haizzz.....
nevermind la...
past is past.....
i am ok now....huhuh....

Motor Accident...~

Today....

I was so happy...

Because i am going for my international marathon....

I practised so damn hard for that....

Runned every single day....

Temp to win the marathon...

To break my own record of the longest run in my life that i have ran....

At first i woke up in the early morning,....

To only realise after that i had marathon...

My heart was jumping happily that this day came...

I even bought a new pair of sports trouser for that....RM19.90...cheetah ladies...

I went there with my friends and baby...

I walked there....

During my journey to that place...

Somthing came across my mind....

Can i win??

I was kindda confident that i have the feeling of winning....

At least past the time....

When the marathon started,...

I ran with my friend kar ling...

We were going to the front slowly and slowly...

Haha....

I felt happy that time....

Because a lot of people stopped cause too tired....

I kept on running and running and running...

Then...

Kar ling started to disappear to the front leaving me behind...

That time...

I was actually feeling very weird....

.I felt somthing is not wrong but i dont know what was that,....

I just leave it and kept on running....

2km....

8km......

16km.....

9km.......

And now...just a few metres more to reach the final stop....

Suddenly....

Somthing pushed me from behind....

That time i was really blank and dont really know what had happened,...

I tried to turn behind and see but i fell down....

I fell down and i felt that i was being pushed  some more....

I cant actually see anything...

All i was heard was a machine sound...

Its scary....

What i was thinking of that time is DYING.....

seriously.....

Then i was being rolled aside....

My heart was pounding hard....

Then someone pulled me to the arm...

I saw an indian guy....

He was also the marathon's participant....

I heard him shouting for help and also "call the ambulans"....

That time...i realised...

I was being knocked down by a motorcycle....

The motorist ran off after knocking me down....

I saw people chasing him.....

Then i cant think of anything more....

I struggled....i pushed....i hold my chest and it was pain....

I was going to vomit but at last i didnt....

People were gathering around me and they were trying to hold me down....

I was gasping for air...

I was so shocked and scared that something will happen to me...

That time i called out "mummy....~"....

Then i thought of my PMR....

I shouted out loud...

VERY VERY VERY LOUD....

Then i thought of my friends... i thought of my family...my PMR....and BABY...

I called baby's name....

At first...then... was too tired of shouting....

then....a chinese guy came to me and asks for my parents phone number...

I was too afraid to tell my parents about it that time...

I didnt tell them that i participate in the run...

I said no to him and he said its a must because i am going to the hospital...

Then i told him the number...

He called my dad....
Then i was lookind at everyone and everywhere....
I saw baby....He look so shocked....
He was with me all the time....
I wanted to hug him that time...
But i was lifeless....
Then....
I heard the ambulance's siren....
The people took me up on the bed and i saw Jane....
She followed me to the hospital and baby also....
Along the way to the hospital....
Jane was with me and baby too....
Baby hold my hand....
And i was also holding his hand....
I hold his hand tightly....Hes trying to comfort me....
Then i arrived at the hospital....
Then i was admitted and now everythings ok....
The nurses said that i had a trauma.....
And that time....
I was only thinking bout my run,, my pmr,,, and my baby.....

DIZZY...!!!@@ i am not feeling well...!! i am sad.....

Huhu....

I am thinking back of my past few days...

I have been enjoying...^^

Yaya...

But on the same time...

I fear about my PMR...

I told my mum that i am afraid of it...

And all she just say was...

TRY YOUR VERY BEST...

I know

I always try my best in all my exams

But somtimes

My best is not the best

Thats what i am afraid now

That my best that i am applying for my PMR 

is really2 not my very best

I already have no more time now...

Days are going by faster and faster...

And fear gets to me

faster and faster too....

I AM SO DAMN SCARED LA...HELPP.....MEEE......

Huhu...

I am actually very scared to face my upcoming exams la./..

OmG.....really cant face it...

I am scared of my Bahasa Melayu and my Sejarah will be the spoiler la....

Cant actually take the fear.....

my bBIE...

I HATE YOU....

Never ever ever trust a person that might have been your friend for years..
Because somtimes when it goes to their importance...
They may betray you or sacrifice you for their own idiots...
I have my own story where my friend did that..
I am so sick and tired of it,,..
Its hurting me...sure it is...
And most of all..
I really hated it,,...
I dont actually know what to do..
To scold that people makes me hate that people more...
I need a help here...
Anyone whos kind enough that come across my blog please LEAVE a comment about this...

I AM BACK HOME AGAIN~~!!!

I am back home again today....

HaHA....was so freaking damn happy bout it..=)

At the school time i was just waiting like hell only for the last school bell ring to ring...

Seriously that time moves like a snail when we want it to be fast...

But fast when we want it to slow down....

urggghh...!!

But al least now i  can stay at my house and do all my revision peacefully....well...

I really hope that whatever i am doing now is going to help me in the future....

Just to say that 

I AM HAPPY TO BE BACK AT HOME...!!!

YAY!!! I FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!

Haha....

At last i finished me Pre-PMR examinations...!!

I am so happy bout it...

My result is that i get 5As and 2Bs....huhu

I have to work harder for pmr !!!

Pray for me everyone...!!

I am so damn scared la...!!!

I am feeling so damn scared la now....

My PMR-trail is next month on 3rd of august!!!1

And now...i AM DOING NOTHING...!!!

I want to study....but i got dancing practice...

It makes me hard to study la...

Sometimes i am angry of the dance practice...

But sometimes i dont....

I AM IN DILEMMA....!!!

FUCK...

Now I am Feeling Much Much Much More Better

Hmph...,

Today , i woke up feeling so tired...

Because last night i had leg cramp...

So pain till i can't fall asleep...

But luckily i messaged my biebie....

At first i thought he slept...

Then i was quite shocked when my phone vibrated and saw it was 

my biebie replying my message~!!! ^*^

=.<...

hehehe....

That time was so happy...

Thats why i message him i can't really feeling the pain...

Slight pain only.....

Then i suddenly started to feel tired and felt asleep...

Just imagine this morning i woke up and saw two more meassages...

hehehe.....

I dont' want say what the message wrote ; )

hahakz....

Well...i hope that today will be a good day....

Tomorrow will be a good day and so on...

THE BEST IS EVERYDAY IS A GOOD DAY....!!!

OH gOD~!!!

Oh my God~!!

Whatever is happening to me now is making me feeling so 

confused and sick....!!!

Why is my life like that??

Why can't i just get to wish that my life would be

A simple life, 

Filled with happiness...

Laughter, Loves, and also Peace??

I am starting to get tired staying in my house....

Last time ya....

I would feel like i want to quickly grow up and get away....

Nowadays....

That they are already better a bit...

I feel ok .....

Only A LITTLE BIT.....

Now i am missing all my friends in SERATAS....

Hope to see them soon....

Well....

I won't have to wait long..

Because i am going back to my school this Sunday...

Hmph....

I am still having the feeling of sadness...

In my heart, my mind,..and my soul....

You really really did broke my heart and now its wounded.....

What you think you wanna do bout it??

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Today i went to my primary school,

Sekolah Kebangsaan Kampung Muhibbah,

I am so happy to see all my ex-teachers....

They already look kindda old...

Well..,

Not all of them..

Some are...And i can really feel that i am growing up and also going to be an adult soon....

Its just that i have to wait....

Well.... Now only i see how hard teachers are used to be...

Teaching is a real hard work...

Well...,But i am happy that i studied seriously all these year till i get to a boarding school....Hahah....Thats just lucky me i think....

Then i went to my supposed-to-be-school....

Sekolah Menengah Kampung Muhibbah....

There i met a lot of my old friends....

So happy to see them...

The boys joked with me and the girls chatted with me...

Seeing them all studying in the same class and same school...

Kindda make me feel jealous and regretted why i even entered the boarding school....

I love my friends here....

And now i really missed studying with them together....

Sometimes...I would even sit down quietly think that

Why i even accept that boarding school??

Why i want to live my house, my parents, my friends for that??

Why would i even want to transfer and get involved in all types of problems...??

FRIENDSHIP, STUDIES, LOVES, TEACHERS, AND SENIORS??

what is all this about??....

I think and think ....

Only that to find out that i am creating myself problems.....